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Blogs we love: Benefit Scrounging Scum

Passionate and powerful prose from Hoylake's Kaliya Franklyn is shortlisted for George Orwell Prize

Written by . Published on May 8th 2012.


Blogs we love: Benefit Scrounging Scum

About the author

Kaliya Franklyn, 36, lives in Hoylake, attended West Kirby Grammar School and for several years worked in the NHS.  

In 2004, she was diagnosed with Ehlers Danhos Syndrome, a genetic connective tissue disorder caused by a defect in collagen. In her case, it leads to persistent joint disclocation.



Her mental alacrity and sense of humour have served her well: Kali has been listed in the Top 5 most influential UK news users of Twitter, by Independent Voices. 

She is also the founder of The Broken of Britain, a grassroots online campaigning organisation set up to challenge the current threat to disability benefits, services and independent living and to promote wider disability rights. 

Her first tentative steps into the online world took place on May 22, 2007 when she began the blog Benefit Scrounging Scum. Now it has been shortlisted for the 2012 George Orwell Prize, Britain’s most prestigious award for political writing. 

The awards ceremony takes place in London on May 23, a neat five years later.

Here's one of her latest entries below, from May 1. It's cup of tea length, but worth it.

 

Do You Know What You're Asking?

I REMEMBER it vividly. My last day at work. Well, I say last day at work, more accurately my last day trying to go to work.

I was yet to be diagnosed with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and very unsure whether I was actually ill or somehow doing it to myself as everyone around me believed.

"Just try a bit harder," was my mantra, acutely aware that the job I'd worked so hard to get was in jeopardy if I didn't manage to overcome my sickness absences.

I learnt that those of us who've learnt how to pick ourselves up from the darkest of places, over and over again, will always find a way to do so again' 

So, like any other work day I hauled myself from bed, trying desperately to ignore the shaking and waves of nausea. Dressed, limped to the car and set off. Still feeling terrible as I drove, I desperately attempted to use mind over matter and convince myself I was fine. Turning onto the motorway, pulling into the fast lane....so far so good.

Until, without any warning I threw up. Repeatedly. Forcefully. Still in the fast lane, still travelling 70 miles an hour. Except I was now dripping with vomit. Everywhere. My clothes were soaked, the inside of the windscreen was running, and the steering wheel was overflowing with puke.

Kaliya FranklynKaliya Franklyn

I was so focused on reaching work that I carried on driving. Thinking somehow, some way I could sneak into the building, clean myself up and do my day's work without anyone noticing.

It took another junction and the cold, congealing vomit I was sitting in to bring me round to the concept that there was no way of hiding this. I was saturated and stinking, didn't have any spare clothes with me and, even working in an isolated office, knew I could not get through the day without someone attempting to track down the source of the foul smell.

In that moment, as I pulled off the motorway and turned around to go home and clean myself up that I knew. This was the end of my job. My employers had been as accomodating as they could through all the failures of access to work, even trying to provide some protection by "medically suspending" me in the hope the equipment ordered by AtW would actually turn up, and had given me more paid sick days than I'd managed to work.

Astonishingly they were still willing to find some way of employing me, but I still knew. This was it.

Somehow, despite my not having worked long enough to be entitled to an unpaid sabbatical, my employers managed to arrange it. I had 12 months, after which I'd be guaranteed a job at the same grade and same hours I was working when I left. Not my job to go back to, but it would be a job.  

A year later, I had been diagnosed with EDS, but I was far from able to return to work. I'd done my best to try to learn to cope with my condition but I was too ill, both mentally and physically to stand a chance.

Kaliya Franklyn And Baroness Hollins At The Houses Of ParliamentKaliya and Baroness Hollins at the Houses Of Parliament

Decades of mistreatment by disbelieving medical professionals meant I found it impossible to find a rheumatologist, pain management or physiotherapy. I had no way of knowing if I would ever have that kind of support and no way of returning to the workplace.

Eventually I started to find my way back to living. I found the confidence to join an online forum for others with Hypermobility EDS, a small, supportive community rich with emotional and practical advice. I was so ill I had to learn to walk and talk again.

Alone, without any professional support. I was so weak when I started that I couldn't even tolerate a full minute sitting on a wobble cushion. It took months of adding 30 seconds a day to the wobble cushion time before I could even consider the challenge of relearning to walk. It would be several years before the magical day I managed to make it the 50 meters or so to the corner shop and buy myself some chocolate. It took four years to build enough confidence to consider starting this blog.

After five years, I started to dream about working again. At various times I tried New Deal for Disabled People and Pathways to Work. They would talk a lot about CVs and two tick schemes, but when I asked about professional retraining or whether they had links to employers willing to employ home workers I would be directed to photocopied job adverts for jobs I was physically incapable of ever doing.

So, I wrote, I managed my condition, I learned all I could about anatomy, physiology, physiotherapy, speech therapy and I worked at it. Every day.

I learnt I could manage my symptoms if I listened to my body. I learnt that I could be happy - happier, in fact, than many of my able-bodied friends living the life of career, marry, babies that like every other middle class girl I was supposed to grow up to do.

I learnt of my community, our history, our common challenges and our differences. I learnt that I could pay forward the support which had been offered to me by a community of strangers. That in doing so I could feel worthwhile, like I was making a difference and contributing to society. I learnt that I could survive the bureaucratic insanity of the NHS and welfare state. I learnt never, ever to trust welfare advice after months of receiving the incorrect benefits plunged me into debt. I learnt to learn the rules myself.

It started to feel as though there was light and hope. And then, the Coalition government were elected. I learnt that they intended to target sick and disabled people's vital support in a way more extensive than any of us could have dreamed.

Along with a tiny minority of our community I learnt that this targeting was dreamed up by people with no concept of living without vast resources, no idea of the reality of life with chronic health problems or the huge, yawning chasms in the existing 'support' systems. I learnt that these decision makers were clueless, which made them callous and cruel. Cruel enough to even consider condemning some severly disabled people to their beds.

Over the next two years I learnt exactly what determined, angry and organised people can do. I learnt that those of us who've learnt how to pick ourselves up from the darkest of places, over and over again, will always find a way to do so again. I learnt a sense of fierce protectiveness for others in my community, for those more sick than I, for the children yet to join us, for those so utterly voiceless that being tortured is their daily experience.

I made new friends and learnt how powerful a bond people can form with each other through the commonality of exclusion. We learnt new skills, politics, strategy, PR, policy and precedent. We had all learnt that most basic of lessons; that its always worth a try. With this in mind, we ran national campaigns, lobbied parliament and Peers, developed our own media, rationalised and reasoned. When we were ignored I learnt we could come together to produce our own evidence.

I'll do my absolute best not to think today about the 40,000 sick and disabled people deemed fit to do some work at some point, with the right support, who lost their benefits yesterday. The people who've worked hard, paid tax and national insurance. The people with conditions like cancer, Parkinsons, MS or bi-polar

The Spartacus Report was born of desperation and tears. Speaking to Sue on the phone she mentioned we should probably pay more attention to the DLA reforms. I cried. And cried, and cried. With exhaustion and hopelessness. And so we agreed. The one with slightly better health than the other would lead, and the other donate brain time every day.

And so we did. Others joined us, all of us working desperately, primarily from bed. We had no idea we were creating an entirely new form of protest, a 'from bed activism' or an entirely different, radical new way of working for sick and disabled people. We had no idea because we could barely get through each day.

Sue's in hospital now, being fed by tube and waiting for surgery. She's my friend so I don't want to think about how poorly she really is or what that might mean.

It goes both ways, she doesn't like to think that about me either. Yesterday we talked on the phone and tried to remember last year. We recalled multiple courses of antibiotics for both of us. For me a plaster cast on my wrist, a serious fall from my wheelchair, the day my neck became so unstable I feared waking up a quadriplegic, the rotated vertebrae which still move around disconcertingly and of course the having not been able to speak properly since October.

Kaliya Franklin Giving Her Speech At The Campaign For A Fair Society Campaign LaunchKaliya giving a speech at the Campaign For A Fair Society launch at the Houses of Parliament

We remembered that there was much, much more we couldn't remember. We remembered the days of having to keep hanging up the phone as neither of us could get off the loo, of reaching a point that we wouldn't bother to hang up while one of us vomited, and the days one of us was so fearful the other might die that we'd just stay on the phone. In case. So there was someone to phone an ambulance.

Throughout all this, we both tried to convince ourselves we were fine. That somehow, being in pyjamas, usually opiated more than halfway to oblivion while we worked couldn't damage our health. We worked harder at convincing ourselves of that than almost anything else. That, and that there would definitely, totally be some way, somehow from this that we'd be able to earn enough working from home to not have to rely on benefits. That we'd find an employer somewhere who wouldn't mind the sick. Or the poo. Or the medication. Or the occasional declarations of wanting to be a duck.

Unsurprisingly it hasn't ended brilliantly for either of us.  

Last night my larynx collapsed again and I choked. A lot. Unattractively, coughing and vomiting into a bucket brought to my bed. I'm staying with friends, at home I'd have coughed and vomited onto my bed and had no choice but to sleep in it. Here I get a bucket brought to me. That's spoonie luxury.

The thing is, I'm with friends in Birmingham so that I can go to Naidex. The idea was to go and look at wheelchairs, then meet up with other friends for lunch tomorrow. I planned it all very carefully. Drove here on Sunday, spent all of yesterday resting. But then there was the choking thing. And the definitely aspirating some of the vomit thing. Then the waking at 6am to do some full blown vomiting thing.

So, now it's gone 10am and I'm still here in my slightly sicky smelling pyjamas. There's definitely puke in my hair, so I can't go anywhere without washing that out. I also can't get it together enough to have a shower and wash my hair, let alone find the skills to control 2 tons of metal on the roads, so there won't be any wheelchairs for me today. Instead I'll stay here on the sofa, I'll try not to worry too much about my sick Suey in hospital, or any of my other poorly friends and force myself to focus upon the lessons learnt in the past nine years.

And I'll do my absolute best not to think today about the 40,000 sick and disabled people deemed fit to do some work at some point, with the right support, who lost their benefits yesterday. The people who've worked hard, paid tax and national insurance. The people with conditions like cancer, Parkinsons, MS or bi-polar.

The people whose contributory Employment Support Allowance ended yesterday when the twelve month time limit was brought in to apply retrospectively. I'll try not to think of them, not to think of the potential problems to come when Personal Independence Payment comes in. I'll try not to think, with guilt of the nine years I've had to learn to adjust to living life with both disability and chronic ill health.

I'll try not to think that even with all that experience, the ability to manage my symptoms, that reality just doesn't work that way. Try not to think of however hard I try, still being too sick and disabled to function.

I'll try not to think any of that, because if I do, all that will come is fear and tears. 

And I'll try hardest of all not to think if politicians really know what they are asking sick and disabled people to do. I'll try not to think that, because the terrible, terrifying answer is that yes, they do. And that a ruthless, brutal form of Darwinism means they have every intention of doing it anyway.  

 

*Read more from Benefit Scrounging Scum here

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6 comments so far, continue the conversation, write a comment.

Dave WhealanMay 8th 2012.

Proving that the pen is mightier than the sword. You go girl!

AnonymousMay 8th 2012.

So well said, I'll share it wherever I can. Thank you for an amazing piece xx

Mandy MeaghanMay 9th 2012.

Wow ....I am in awe for this inspiring woman just wondering just shows you how mighty the written word can be and how social media is being used for such good

AnonymousMay 9th 2012.

Kali deserves a Queens Honour for her work in highlighting these issues. And good luck with the awards ceremony. On that note, surely some nice hotel chain can step in and offer to put her up

Lest we forgetMay 9th 2012.

This government is a disgrace

Sheila PowerMay 9th 2012.

What an inspiration this woman is for highlighting the challenges facing the sick, disabled and vulnerable from a so called 'developed' nation.

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